I now know this because I am post-“ick”tal©. Although, I didn’t know this when I woke up. Nor did I know (for sure?) if I seized last night. Or, even if I had a nocturnal seizure. I’ll get to that. Due to being post-“ick”tal©, I’m quite cognitively impaired, plus I have taken some Gravol/Dimenhydrinate for my nausea. Therefore, I am circling some planet in our solar system (not sure which one), so this blog post may be incredibly confusing, filled with grammatical errors, be lacking in cohesiveness, so on and so forth!
Okay, what happened–and what’s ticking me off about it. My seizure patterns and manifestations seem to, or may have changed a bit. Any Simple Partial stuff seems to be really vague, and then take forever to lead up to anything else. Now, this could appear as a good thing: my Anticonvulsants are doing a good job of keeping things under wraps. However, with me having Epilepsy and multiple types of seizures, if a Simple Partial is going to lead to another type, I want it to hurry up! Let’s have it over and done with!
On the way home last night. More vague and prolonged Simple Partial crap and not a lot of it. That’s what made it hard to tell what was happening. Epigastric rising, DP/DR off and on, but definitely altered consciousness. A bit of rapid eye blinking and blurred vision? However, when immediately post-“ick”tal©, what a headache! Ocular induced? Ocular area! Not a migraine as it went away eventually.
This morning. I never know where I am when I get up first thing, anyway. However, as the morning progressed, something’s not right here. Initially, some mild cognitive impairment? But my legs. I’m being more clumsy than usual! A lovely woman even offered up her seat to me on transit as I was stumbling around so much. I politely declined. All of this made me think: nocturnal motor seizure? No. Now I just think it’s because I’m sick.
I arrive at school. Oh, bloody hell! Nausea, definite cognitive impairment, headache. The Instructor (who is a nurse and knows all of my head nuttiness), took one look at me and was WTF??? I knew I must have looked like zombie that was about to slip into a coma at any moment. I told her I thought I was post-“ick”tal©. She asked me if I wanted to go home. I told her, no. I said it was nothing and that I had been laid up in bed sick for 72 hours before!
Kind of funny in class with the other students, though. They were all, “…post-“ick”tal©…what’s that…?” I desperately wanted to launch into a huge “Seizure Speech,” but we were busy doing other things–like schoolwork?
Had to pick up some scripts on the way home and finally remembered to buy my damn anti-nauseants that I keep running out of! I guess actually being sick while in store prompted me to do it? I have a nice, big stash now. However, even after taking some, I’m still nauseous. Oh, well. They’re doping me up quite nicely, so even though I’m nauseous I can still sit here and feel like I’m completely stoned. My head is hurting, though. Photophobia, too (why am I on my computer…?) Phonophobia a bit (I am sitting in silence…) The psychiatric disturbances are probably there as always–I’m just too zoned out to tell? I do feel anxious, though. Yes.
ASIDE: For those that don’t already know, when people with Epilepsy have pre-existing or comorbid psychiatric conditions, their/some psychiatric features can manifest when post-“ick”tal©. I get depressed and anxious.
I think this whole post is really kind of stupid or pointless, maybe. I don’t know. I guess sometimes the posts may be of interest, or useful. I always write about my seizures here to document them ASAP as I may not get around to putting them into my “Dossier.”
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